Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Why Me??



Today has been one of those days.... I feel like no matter what I do its wrong or am being wronged. I guess I am going to have a pitty party. Wanna join?
I woke up this morning at quarter to ten and already knew my day would be bad. Its never a good day for me if I wake up that late. I was already feeling kinda down to begin with and so it was inevitable that I would end up feeling like I would just need to hop back in bed and sleep the day away. I almost did too. When it was time for MaKenna do go down for her nap, I almost went to bed myself. Too bad I didn't.
I keep telling myself its not healthy for me to stress or feel down, especially when I am prego. So this is my attempt to write down my stresses and then let it go.
So, here I go...
Stress #1- I lost my unemployment because my old employer appealed and won. Hope they have a great Christmas full of coal in their stockings.
Stress #2- Our heater/furnace is on the fritz we have had 3 guys out to see what is the deal and they have no idea!
Stress #3- I have no control over my emotions so that gets me in trouble.
Stress #4- I have so many items on my to do list that I feel like they will not get done in time. That includes Christmas shopping. (sorry Dave)
Stress #5- We finally were feeling we were on top of things then everything comes crashing down all in the same week. Is it ever going to end this roller coaster of good and bad? I would love a steady plateau of good luck. NO MORE UP AND DOWN!

Okay, so there ya go. Its out and now I need to buck up! To get me going on the right track I am going to list items I am grateful for!
#1- I am pregnant with a BOY!!! and that we are both healthy.
#2- We live in a fantastic home with a great ward.
#3- I have a fantastic family that loves me and I love them.
#4- We have no car payments... that is such an amazing feeling.
#5- Christmas is next week and it is the best time of the year!
#6- Last but most important, I am grateful for my relationship with the Lord that when I feel down I can turn to him and I know he listens and loves me.

Okay, time to be happy and relax and enjoy this time of the year and know that
"when you get to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hold on!" (Franklin D Roosevelt)